[it was adam's turn to listen in silence. he watched her talk, he watched her body language, and it was clear that she was fuming, and hurt. he gripped at his sleeve, telling himself not to interrupt or to stop her from talking. he was angry too, every time he told her that she needed to just listen to him she didn't do it. just his luck, too, all the women he knew had their own agendas and refused to listen to him. just like his childhood friend had left him after hijacking that train, he was starting to doubt his own resolve and his own ideals. he had things that needed to get done, that he just had to do, and he didn't care who he hurt to do it.
...but he cared that he hurt weiss. that was odd, wasn't it? she was a member of the schnee company, she was the enemy that he had been fighting against for a while... but he knew she wasn't like her father. she wasn't associated with the things that he had done, but right now she wasn't helping her case any.
once she was done, adam sighed. he glanced back over to her, telling himself to calm down and not yell at her for being so deluded and spoiled. this wasn't just about her, he had decided to run from everything just to show her that he hadn't considered her one of them. he was many things, but he didn't like being called a liar when he wasn't one.]
I didn't lie to you. Not once.
[his tone was fierce, left no room for any doubt. he tried to keep telling himself to relax but it was so hard when he was talking to someone as stubborn as her.]
I planned on telling you what I was..... but this was exactly how I knew it would go over. Accusations, anger, and thinking I had betrayed you when I never did. I hadn't told you because I was waiting for the right time to, that was all. After getting back Second I was going to tell you everything, that's the honest truth. I was going to tell you how I was a White Fang member, how I've killed to get what I wanted.... but it just-...
[he let out a shaky exhale, a hand running through his hair now instead of gripping the sleeve of his jacket.]
We ended up meeting in the Battle Royale. And that just.... what else was I to do? Killing you would have meant you would have seen me as just a monster, as the beast you've already claimed me to be. I wanted you to win over me so your father could see and you would be let off the hook. Don't you see, Weiss? You won't believe my words so my actions are the only thing left that you possibly could believe. Having you win over me was my way of showing you that.... that I never wanted to use you for any personal gain, that I wanted you to see I don't care about the associations between us!
[he noticed he had been raising his voice, and that was even gaining a couple looks in the cafeteria.]
You're acting like the deluded one here. Think about it, Weiss, just think for a second about it. When have I ever done something that wasn't in your best interest? I warned you to be careful when I knew things would turn dangerous, I wanted you to win over me so you could gain the trust of your father again and show him what side you're on, I have never betrayed you!
[adam pushed off the wall, stepping closer to her now. he knew what he was, that he was just a monster that would do whatever it took to complete a mission. he just... didn't know how he could ever get her to see past all that. when he spoke again he was closer to her and his voice was low.]
....I care about you, and the fact that you can't see that is the most upsetting thing of all.
action;
...but he cared that he hurt weiss. that was odd, wasn't it? she was a member of the schnee company, she was the enemy that he had been fighting against for a while... but he knew she wasn't like her father. she wasn't associated with the things that he had done, but right now she wasn't helping her case any.
once she was done, adam sighed. he glanced back over to her, telling himself to calm down and not yell at her for being so deluded and spoiled. this wasn't just about her, he had decided to run from everything just to show her that he hadn't considered her one of them. he was many things, but he didn't like being called a liar when he wasn't one.]
I didn't lie to you. Not once.
[his tone was fierce, left no room for any doubt. he tried to keep telling himself to relax but it was so hard when he was talking to someone as stubborn as her.]
I planned on telling you what I was..... but this was exactly how I knew it would go over. Accusations, anger, and thinking I had betrayed you when I never did. I hadn't told you because I was waiting for the right time to, that was all. After getting back Second I was going to tell you everything, that's the honest truth. I was going to tell you how I was a White Fang member, how I've killed to get what I wanted.... but it just-...
[he let out a shaky exhale, a hand running through his hair now instead of gripping the sleeve of his jacket.]
We ended up meeting in the Battle Royale. And that just.... what else was I to do? Killing you would have meant you would have seen me as just a monster, as the beast you've already claimed me to be. I wanted you to win over me so your father could see and you would be let off the hook. Don't you see, Weiss? You won't believe my words so my actions are the only thing left that you possibly could believe. Having you win over me was my way of showing you that.... that I never wanted to use you for any personal gain, that I wanted you to see I don't care about the associations between us!
[he noticed he had been raising his voice, and that was even gaining a couple looks in the cafeteria.]
You're acting like the deluded one here. Think about it, Weiss, just think for a second about it. When have I ever done something that wasn't in your best interest? I warned you to be careful when I knew things would turn dangerous, I wanted you to win over me so you could gain the trust of your father again and show him what side you're on, I have never betrayed you!
[adam pushed off the wall, stepping closer to her now. he knew what he was, that he was just a monster that would do whatever it took to complete a mission. he just... didn't know how he could ever get her to see past all that. when he spoke again he was closer to her and his voice was low.]
....I care about you, and the fact that you can't see that is the most upsetting thing of all.